For some reasons I wanted to write this for a long time. But for some reasons I could not take a time out to write. Today though I am sitting in my office desk, I have made up my mind to write about it. It's now or never. So lets start....
Some people come to your life and in no time flashes out. Something like that happened to me too. Few months ago, I met a girl in fb. We connected instantly. It's very rare that I would connect to or talk to a stranger girl on phone. But I did. We started to talk on phone and in no time I propose her and she accepted. So we became bf gf without even meeting each other. Strange na. Yea it is.
After I proposed her, we started to talk each other through phone, whats app etc. Worst part is we started to discuss about marriage. Even worse, we started to make plans about the unseen future.
Important thing is I was happy with her. I liked talking to her. Whenever we talked I felt as if I have known her for a long long time. I think I was really in love with her. This continued for around 3 months.
Then one day, all of a sudden she said me something which did made me think this relationship will come to a halt. She asked me to never take any relationship seriously because when it does not work, it hurts. To be honest I was surprised to hear this. Yes when things don't go well, it hurts. But that does not mean we should not be in love. Lot of things do hurt us in life that does not mean we stop doing all those stuffs that hurt us.
My fear did come true. The same evening when I tried calling her, she did not pick up my phone, I tried calling her at different times, still no response. The next morning I tried again still no response. At around 12 noon, when I was on a conference call with the client, she called me up, I pick up the phone and told her that I will call her bk later. Then I called her up, she said she was busy with some office work. So I decided not to call her at all.
So I did not call her. In the evening when I was warming up for my regular evening run, she called me. I picked up the phone. She apologized and told me that her mobile was in silent mode so he could not pick up the phone. Then she told me one more thing. She told me that she has said yes to her parents to meet the person, who was coming to see her for marriage.
From that day onwards, I started to take for granted that if I called her, there is a 50% chance that she would not pick up her phone. And this is how it exactly turned out too. Our relationship was no longer normal.
When I asked her how good are the chances of us getting together, she would just reply that if the guy rejects her we could be together. I felt like stoping our relationship right at that moment. But I did not....
This way it continued for some days. Then all of a sudden one day I get to know from her that her marriage was fixed. I asked her if she was happy. She said she was. That was all I wanted to know. It been around 2 and a half weeks since that day. And I would say I have move on too. Yea it hurts, it still hurts. But this is what life is all about. You do things which you think is right, but circumstance does not help and then you have 2 options. Either you blame or curse her(sometimes yourself) or you just take it as a learning and move on. I prefer choosing the later.
I know for sure she never intended to hurt me.I also think she did loved me in the same way as I did. But there are certain things in life which are not within our control no matter how much we try. This was one of them.
Some people come to your life and in no time flashes out. Something like that happened to me too. Few months ago, I met a girl in fb. We connected instantly. It's very rare that I would connect to or talk to a stranger girl on phone. But I did. We started to talk on phone and in no time I propose her and she accepted. So we became bf gf without even meeting each other. Strange na. Yea it is.
After I proposed her, we started to talk each other through phone, whats app etc. Worst part is we started to discuss about marriage. Even worse, we started to make plans about the unseen future.
Important thing is I was happy with her. I liked talking to her. Whenever we talked I felt as if I have known her for a long long time. I think I was really in love with her. This continued for around 3 months.
Then one day, all of a sudden she said me something which did made me think this relationship will come to a halt. She asked me to never take any relationship seriously because when it does not work, it hurts. To be honest I was surprised to hear this. Yes when things don't go well, it hurts. But that does not mean we should not be in love. Lot of things do hurt us in life that does not mean we stop doing all those stuffs that hurt us.
My fear did come true. The same evening when I tried calling her, she did not pick up my phone, I tried calling her at different times, still no response. The next morning I tried again still no response. At around 12 noon, when I was on a conference call with the client, she called me up, I pick up the phone and told her that I will call her bk later. Then I called her up, she said she was busy with some office work. So I decided not to call her at all.
So I did not call her. In the evening when I was warming up for my regular evening run, she called me. I picked up the phone. She apologized and told me that her mobile was in silent mode so he could not pick up the phone. Then she told me one more thing. She told me that she has said yes to her parents to meet the person, who was coming to see her for marriage.
From that day onwards, I started to take for granted that if I called her, there is a 50% chance that she would not pick up her phone. And this is how it exactly turned out too. Our relationship was no longer normal.
When I asked her how good are the chances of us getting together, she would just reply that if the guy rejects her we could be together. I felt like stoping our relationship right at that moment. But I did not....
This way it continued for some days. Then all of a sudden one day I get to know from her that her marriage was fixed. I asked her if she was happy. She said she was. That was all I wanted to know. It been around 2 and a half weeks since that day. And I would say I have move on too. Yea it hurts, it still hurts. But this is what life is all about. You do things which you think is right, but circumstance does not help and then you have 2 options. Either you blame or curse her(sometimes yourself) or you just take it as a learning and move on. I prefer choosing the later.
I know for sure she never intended to hurt me.I also think she did loved me in the same way as I did. But there are certain things in life which are not within our control no matter how much we try. This was one of them.
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