Why I am addicted to running?

It's 5 am in the morning, my mobile alarms rings. I get up from my bed, dismisses the alarm and put a new alarm at 5:10 am and gets back to bed. At 5:10 am, the alarm rings again. I get up and dismisses it again. Drinks the water from the bottle lying at the table. Put on my running track pant, my regular running T shirt, put my socks, put my mobile phone in my pocket with ear phone in my ears and I go down the stairs. Put my Nike running shoe. Now you know what I am up to. This is how most of my day at Kokrajhar begins.

Before I start running, I warm up by streatching by legs, arms and shoulders. Then I put on my running app and start running. I make sure that whenever I am running, I have my ear phone with me. Listening to music while running keeps me motivated. Generally I like listening to soft melody songs rather than rock songs while running. Yea there are also days when I forget my ear phone in my room. Those days can be tough to keep yourself motivated...

At Kokrajhar, most of the time the roads are empty early at the morning. This leaves me running solo. The first few kilometres is never easy when you are running long distance. Many times you feel like stoping and going back home. But after you have cross that threshold mark, you start tasting the sweet of long distance running.

Whenever I run alone, lot of things come across my mind. I tend to think a lot about life. Not just about my life. But life in general. Some I think about what my life would had been if I were a Superman. How I would have manage my life as Superman. Sometimes I even wonder what if I would have been an actor. What sort of role I would have played. All these random thoughts do come across my running mind...

There are times when after running the distance, you feel your legs are gone and you can't go any further. But you won't stop just because your mind says you can finish the race.Then, it becomes the battle between the mind and the body where at the end your mind wins. Atleast till now. The satisfaction that one feels after completing the distance is something that only a runner can understand. That's the reason why it is said that running can be an addiction.

There are also times when you will find rain falling down heavily over your head. Running in the rain is totally a different experience. I remember during my final days at IITG, I use to run in the rain. Infact it was raining when I ran for the last time at IITG.

"Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional" -  Haruki Murakami, What I Talk About When I Talk About Running

I guess I have written enough on running...

Have a great day ahead...

My Dream Life....

             
                                     When I talk about my dream the only thing that comes in my mind is Travelling Places. And  nothing else. No fancy cars, no luxury house, no money, no start up plans, no joining dream company, just travelling around the world.

I did try to live this dream last December when I travelled alone to Himachal. Believe me this was a awesome experience. It's true travelling alone is not easy. Atleast when you are doing it for the first time. I mean I have travelled alone many times hopping from one city to another. But this was my first back pack trip all alone. Believe me the drug of independence is just too good. You are all alone and you just have to follow your heart and nothing else. This trip left me wanting for more and more. Its true sometimes in solo trip, you might get bored sleeping alone in your hotel room. You have to ensure that you have enough books to read or some video games to play in your hotel. As you start travelling solo you will realize that you are not the only person travelling solo. You will find lot of other guys doing the same thing as you. It's good if you could open up with these solo experience packers and get some tips. Believe me these tips come very handy in ur future trips.

Running is another dream thats come along with this dream. As I travell to new places, I dream of exploring new places thorugh running. Running gives me confidence that I can achieve anything in life. It gives me courage that no matter how bad my life may be, I can always overcome them. It tells me to 'never ever give up in life'. In short, it teaches me to 'Fight'.When I say fight, I don't mean violence, I mean fighting against your weakness, fighting against the impossible. Thats the reason I am addicted to running.

Like any dream, this dream also does not true unless we wake up and run towards it. At the end it comes to us, how much time we take to wake up. Either we wake up and do it now or we keep on waiting......

"We all have dreams, in order to make dreams come into reality, it takes an awful lot of determination, dedication, self-discipline and effort"-Jesse Owens, Olympic gold-medalist runner

I m going home

Yep... Finally I am coming home.... It's been almost a year since I have been home. Tomorrow at 7:25 am in the morning I am catching a flying ship to go home.

I have been in Mumbai for the last 3 years. Two years of those I spent at college. Since getting out of IIT, I have not been at home. So the excitement level is different this time. This is the first time I am going home after I have started earning. I know when I make plans, most of them does not work, still I have made a few. So lets hope all works......

Flash....

For some reasons I wanted to write this for a long time. But for some reasons I could not take a time out to write. Today though I am sitting in my office desk, I have made up my mind to write about it. It's now or never. So lets start....

Some people come to your life and in no time flashes out. Something like that happened to me too. Few months ago, I met a girl in fb. We connected instantly. It's very rare that I would connect to or talk to a stranger girl on phone. But I did. We started to talk on phone and in no time I propose her and she accepted. So we became bf gf without even meeting each other. Strange na. Yea it is.

After I proposed her, we started to talk each other through phone, whats app etc. Worst part is we started to discuss about marriage.  Even worse, we started to make plans about the unseen future.

Important thing is I was happy with her. I liked talking to her. Whenever we talked I felt as if I have known her for a long long time. I think I was really in love with her. This continued for around 3 months.

Then one day, all of a sudden she said me something which did made me think this relationship will come to a halt. She asked me to never take any relationship seriously because when it does not work, it hurts. To be honest I was surprised to hear this. Yes when things don't go well, it hurts. But that does not mean we should not be in love. Lot of things do hurt us in life that does not mean we stop doing all those stuffs that hurt us.

My fear did come true. The same evening when I tried calling her, she did not pick up my phone, I tried calling her at different times, still no response. The next morning I tried again still no response. At around 12 noon, when I was on a conference call with the client, she called me up, I pick up the phone and told her that I will call her bk later. Then I called her up, she said she was busy with some office work. So I decided not to call her at all.

So I did not call her. In the evening when I was warming up for my regular evening run, she called me. I picked up the phone. She apologized and told me that her mobile was in silent mode so he could not pick up the phone. Then she told me one more thing. She told me that she has said yes to her parents to meet the person, who was coming to see her for marriage.

From that day onwards, I started to take for granted that if I called her, there is a 50% chance that she would not pick up her phone. And this is how it exactly turned out too. Our relationship was no longer normal.

When I asked her how good are the chances of us getting together, she would just reply that if the guy rejects her we could be together. I felt like stoping our relationship right at that moment. But I did not....

This way it continued for some days. Then all of a sudden one day I get to know from her that her marriage was fixed. I asked her if she was happy. She said she was. That was all I wanted to know. It been around 2 and a half weeks since that day. And I would say I have move on too. Yea it hurts, it still hurts. But this is what life is all about. You do things which you think is right, but circumstance does not help and then you have 2 options. Either you blame or curse her(sometimes yourself) or you just take it as a learning and move on. I prefer choosing the later.

I know for sure she never intended to hurt me.I also think she did loved me in the same way as I did. But there are certain things in life which are not within our control no matter how much we try. This was one of them.